February 28, 2010

Today sucks. Long dreaded day. I feel dead but still alive, sadly.

February 27, 2010

Today is dark and grey. The clouds lurk over the earth for a whole damn day. This darkness is so fitting to my mood.

Don't really know how on track I am anymore. I have these mood swings more often now. When you don't sleep nothing seems real anymore. Everything is a kind of mist and you can snap in and out of concious quite easily.

EDIT:

I just came home from a drive. Went up to the usual place, fishtailed a few corners for the hell of it. I realise that no matter where you are, that lonely insecure feeling just remains. Just cant shake it...

February 24, 2010

Today is a hard day to swallow. I had to do it and face the facts. I hope for the best and that you'll continue to grow without me.

EDIT:

Here I am today... someone without you. I feel lonely. My outlook on life is much different now. I guess I'll have to wait and see what life throws at me. Although it hurts I have to give myself a reason to push through and bear with it. Well, because thats what I made you do.